been reading... dan brown's angels n demons. quite addictive. read from 12am till about 2++ b4 i finally torn myself away to go bath.
sch's starting and i just started on my holiday hmwk today. very little (almost completed one bio SQ. yes. didnt even finish one qn!) but i guess it's a start. i'm quite worried i wont have time to finish them. i better not waste my nxt few days. i'm actually forgoing the annual e6 chalet for the first time to finish it. i better not miss it for nothing. i want to see my friends thou. so yes, i want sch to start. but i really hope i can finish them b4 sch reopens jeez. have a week.......
watched Grey's Autonomy (5, 11pm) which is abt the life of interns (docters right out of uni, not fullfledged docs kinda). their shifts last 48hrs n their boss give them a really really hard time. a phrase my mom calls the shit-taking. or something, cant rmb the exact phrase.
why do ppl want to be doctors, besides the certainty of wealth n status? lives are in your hands. u hv to be decisive, weight options and decide what to do. huge respondsibility - your decision may very well cause the death of the patient. then there is the patient's family. depending on you to save their love one's life. such huge responsibility that comes with that occupation. there are less taxing occupations around... there are other jobs that can bring in much more money
i wonder if dad has lost anyone. lost any babies. i wonder how it felt like, delievering his first baby. hearing that first cry... i must ask him some day soon.
i see mom and i dont mind living her life. working half a day, a nice per hour rate. i see us leading a comfortable life but it's cos dad's working very hard, dont see him often.
sometimes i'm in awe. all the stuff they must have had to memorise! the syptoms of the hundreds of illnesses, the medicine to prescribe, the SPELLING of all those long jargon and medicine. the practice/skill needed, the confidence to cut open patients and meddle with their insides..
of cos the lofty thought becoming a doctor has crossed my mind with everybody askin if i wanna follow my parents footsteps; with the attraction of having the same lifestyle . do i even have the ability in the first place lol.but do i really wanna be one?
i dont know what i wanna be. what are my interests? photography, advertistments. i dont see myself in those lines thou. i've considered being a dentist - work with my hands, easy money (ithink =S) but only 34 per yr accepted into NUS. or in hospitality. in a hotel or something. serviceorientated. i'm quite gd w ppl no? lol.
and i think i'll prolly be studying in sg la.. when ppl ask if i'm going overseas to study, mom answers w/o skippin a beat "nah, staying put in singapore..if she can make it". wldnt mind spending a few years somewhere else,immersin in a differnet culture/environment, broaden my mind, speak better english lol. and prolly grow up abit. living a pretty sheltered life now, nvr worked a day in my life =S. i've actually left my mind wander sometimes to the day i leave, wonderin who wld be there to send me off.. whether i wld be crying lol. but yup. i understand it wld be a unnecessary financial burden to my parents.
i dont even know what i wanna study!