Held out like a lightsaber, ready for action whenever the doors were thrown open..
*whosh* the umbrella open n out into the rain. lol.. sheltered this ah ma looking ah ma into the busstop i did.. asked her where she was heading but she reminded me how small my :style umbrella (came w the mag la) was haha.. decided not to pop into esso for wan pao (for grandma to read.. haha i have a liking for elderly cos of my grandma.i do wonder if i'll take stuff for granted if she was in s'pore).
it was pouring ^_^
slisp-slosped in the 1 inch water, clutchin my bag close to me.. the roar of the water in its desperate rush [lol i bet if it rained long enough, the force wld have created a mini waterfall (boy i miss sec1/2 phy geog)] water trickling down my back.. sqush-squash of my shoes..the flash and imminent rumble of thunder. well it wasnt jus a rumble. it was a roar. i could practically
feel it..liek stereo turned up too high lol.. flipping of the brolly! and the aiming of it into the wind so it got flipped back ^_^..
reached home w back of shirt soak (lol i must learn how to hold umbrellas properly!) n skirt w a gradient not unlike ms (maths)(zhss) tan's pink deniem skirt.. mom was there at the door but w/o the towel.. the commerial--"*世上只有妈妈好...* gal runs outta bus into the rain into mom who has towel ready.. mom presents Fernleaf milk" bluff one! lol.
sometimes, i watch the rain. watching it start. the crazy wind. the calm before the storm. the red of the clay-ish tile change colour drop by drop b4 turning into a solid deep earthbrown. the leaves getting their asses kicked by the wind..
sometimes, i watch at night. by the stairways window or mom's room. the faint smell of rain in the cool breeze (not the other smelly rain smell). lighting, illuminating the sky. frm velvet to a burst of white and it's day for a split second. sometimes i watch objects instead of the sky. the harsh shadows lighting creates. sometimes it seems like everything's jus a set from the movie. the trees, cars, fence all look fake.
some very rare times when i aint sleep on the way to school, i watch the rain when in kinho's mom's car which is a sedan (nissan sunny!).. i would be in the back row, watching the warm orange glow of the street lights cast everchanging images of the waterdroplet on the front seats and on my hands lol.
try watching the rain sometimes.. =)
well. watching and being in the rain pretty different. this is the wettest i've gotten in the rain and it's still not very wet lol. i wonder if rain's just a novality lol.
i started watchin rain when i was sleeping in the other room, with my bed against the wall, beneath the window (the eaves of the roof hang beyond so i dont get wet lah). whenever it rained, i would be pressing against the refreshingly cool, cool wall.. the curtains would bellow outwards, directed the wind down at me.. loved the rain. well. bed aint there anymore, what a waste of rain.
well the day started horrible with me sleeping at 2am w/o doing what i was supposed to do - a chinese AO paper, bio enzymes tut (which she didnt go thru today!) and gp (which she caught chickenpox!). waking up heavy.. but not really bad. i jus remember the reason for my feathers being so easily ruffles/irriatated at every lil thing/bad moodness. i was in sch early (7am) w only a a stationary mosiac model of ppl (stationary ppl scattered randomly across the grandstand) i choose a step, plonked my self down n promply slept. and very rudely awaking by a grp of friends (not my friends. the grp of ppl were friends) singing happy bday and stuff. i was practically srrounded cos the bday ppl choose to sit right next to me. cannot see ppl sleeping ah?! scream la. talk la. >_< (yes i know it sounds unreasonable of me to rant abt them la but heck. my blog.)
5th floor classroom so we tried the lift but it came packed so had to wait for the nxt one. we and some others students and a teacher or 2 got in almost fillin it. then like 2/3/4 teachers hurried over. some got out to make space ( so there was like more than enuff space lor) but
no one of them wanted all of us out >_< blah.
then mr ong said no tutorial, go lib study. we climbed p 4 storeys to find the lib closed n the class not there. after sweating it out there for a while we decided to head to class la. i set out to try complete my chinese which was freaking hard loh (dunno how i'm gonna pass chinese X_X). june at the other table tried to pass, rudely forcin her way but ramin against my chair(oh yeah all chairs had wheels). let it pass. but it happened like trice! i pushed her chair hard. saw shocked expression of ppl at her table but being the ppl we are, not liking to see ugly/awkward scenes joked how childish we were (lol quite naturally la cos june kinda xiao mei mei kinda n i oso kinda childish) but was really pissed. surprisingly, xiao ying realised. must be lack of response when spoken too and no lame stuff being sprouted by me lol
i havent felt so annoyed (to put it mildly) since forever!<-- i want to stress that hor. i aintlike that all the time. I had a hurtful comment/retort (which i kept to myself duh) for every unfortunate line i heard being utter..yelled at some friends (thou there were lines like hurry up! and shut up la(when lames stuff utter)<-- ok tt was rude). felt evil but boy i still was angry w the whole world. all becos of lack of sleep, undone homework (so i thought) and now i realise, mostly cos of some strangers (who didnt mean it). mayb it's that time of the month soon! lol. anyway. was back to self somewhere through the chem tut (which was free period la)
yeah. this long grandfather's story is to remind my self not to like such a wave of badmoodiness take over me. and to question myself why i feel as such. wahaha. so can be errm. better prepared for any.. surprises. my friends shldnt suffer cos of my wanting to pick a bone.
oh yeah. after chinese oral, the teacher asked if she could ask a private qn. she then asked if i was "pan4 ni4". and of cos i didnt understand her qn lol. she said pan ni = rebellious. orh...but no what. i aint rebellious. sharks. i think relief teacher complained i didnt hand in all the homework loh^^;. aiyah. jus kinda wierd n out of the blue, the qn.
it's not 19may today actually. i'm continuing the draft from yest.. actually.. there was lots of stuff i had wanted to blog abt..another time perhpas.